Alone

I’m stand up near of all my supposed friends. They are all happy, they are talking, laughing ans so. I’m not feeling the same way though. I can’t undestand it. I try to pretend everything it’s okay, but it isn’t. I’m feeling alone. It feels like there is no one so close to me. Why am i feeling this way? why can i just laugh with all they? i try to be happy but i just can pretend. People say that when you pretend something so much, you start to believe it. Why it doesn’t happen to me then? i still pretend. I do it so much that i’m sick of it. There’s moments i can pretend, there’s moment i show people how i feel inside. In fact, i guess they don’t see, or don’t care though. I need help, i really do. But it’s too difficult believe on people. It feels like i can trust no one. Why? i know that people hurt someday, but is there no one i can trust?is there no friend i can count on? i have friends i can trust, but i don’t feel they really undestand me, or they want it or they will help me. I still all aone. It’s just me, i and myself. I’m alone.